{"id":67,"date":"2014-07-01T14:33:39","date_gmt":"2014-07-01T14:33:39","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.themovementofhealing.com\/?p=67"},"modified":"2014-09-29T16:50:18","modified_gmt":"2014-09-29T16:50:18","slug":"im-meditating-as-fast-as-i-can","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.themovementofhealing.com\/?p=67","title":{"rendered":"I&#8217;m Meditating as Fast as I Can"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"http:\/\/www.themovementofhealing.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/06\/SC-life-button-indigo.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignleft wp-image-171 \" src=\"http:\/\/www.themovementofhealing.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/06\/SC-life-button-indigo-300x229.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"131\" height=\"100\" srcset=\"http:\/\/www.themovementofhealing.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/06\/SC-life-button-indigo-300x229.jpg 300w, http:\/\/www.themovementofhealing.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/06\/SC-life-button-indigo.jpg 637w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 131px) 100vw, 131px\" \/><\/a>When I\u2019m not worrying about my Stage 4 cancer diagnosis, I can easily pendulum to a&#8221;get &#8216;er done&#8221; mindset.<\/p>\n<p>I feel a need to hurry up with making a bucket list and to complete everything on the list. I imagine I should organize the photos, (which requires finding the photos first, and even developing some of them, I am ashamed to say), write long emotional letters to my sons, and make them all beautiful quilts to remember me by. And so much more.<\/p>\n<p>Even when I sit for meditation, my mind wants to focus on all the things I <em>should<\/em> do. Perhaps that seems easier than facing the truth.<\/p>\n<p>The truth is&#8211;I don\u2019t have time or energy for any of those bucket list things while also living in the present moment. My days are filled with the ordinary busy-ness of three teen-aged boys, one with special needs, my medical treatments and appointments, meditation practice, writing, preparing nourishing meals and self-care.<\/p>\n<p>I gently remind myself again, and then again, that being with what is happening right now is okay. More than okay. It is all there is.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>When I\u2019m not worrying about my Stage 4 cancer diagnosis, I can easily pendulum to a&#8221;get &#8216;er done&#8221; mindset. I feel a need to hurry up with making a bucket list and to complete everything on the list. I imagine &hellip; <a href=\"http:\/\/www.themovementofhealing.com\/?p=67\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_s2mail":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[2],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-67","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-life"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.themovementofhealing.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/67","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.themovementofhealing.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.themovementofhealing.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.themovementofhealing.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.themovementofhealing.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=67"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"http:\/\/www.themovementofhealing.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/67\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":190,"href":"http:\/\/www.themovementofhealing.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/67\/revisions\/190"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.themovementofhealing.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=67"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.themovementofhealing.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=67"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.themovementofhealing.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=67"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}